Hiatus to Heal, Learn and Grow

I’m Back!

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I always strongly encouraged my clients to prioritize self-care. We cannot give to others if we fail to take care of ourselves—not without grave consequences.

In an act of self-love, I took a hiatus from life coaching to focus on my own self-care—to heal, learn, and grow. And now, I’ve decided it’s time to return to helping others do the same. This round, I’m coming at things with a very different perspective and so much more to bring to the table!

One thing that sets a life coach apart from a therapist is the ability to share from one’s own experiences and not be forced to categorize humans into diagnoses and CPD codes.

In the realm of life experiences, I’m infinitely wealthy and have much to share. In the realm of categories, I’ve never found one that fits. The closest I’ve come to a label that fits is one I was awarded 2 years ago.

At 48 I was Diagnosed with Autism

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What was labeled Asperger’s Syndrome in the past is ASD-1 in 2023. I suspect there will be an expanding umbrella (or spectrum) of labels to place on my tribe of beautifully complex, incredibly literal, and grossly misunderstood humans.

During my hiatus, I have had innumerable epiphanies and I feel myself being called to share in the hopes I can help at least one human who may be blindly suffering from the kind of angst I have experienced over the years. There are few things more comforting than hearing someone share your story and discovering you are not alone. I find this to be even more healing when your story is so very different than the masses.

I’ve contemplated writing a memoir, and that remains in the forefront of my mind…but for now, I am going to do what I do best (because I am Autistic) which is open up vulnerably, honestly, and wholeheartedly.

One gem I have learned is, my willingness to be open, honest, vulnerable, and deeply caring are hallmark traits of most Autistics. These are the same traits that often lead us into unsafe spaces and make us magnets for narcissists, sociopaths and psychopaths. All of which have paved my journey through life this far.

Because of this, I have been on a relentless quest to learn all I can about Autism, the characteristics and behaviors of toxic humans, and why we have a tendency to attract them. Since knowledge and experience hold far more value when shared…

Let the sharing commence!

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Please join me with kindness, compassion, empathy, an open heart, and an open mind void of judgment.

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Cultivating Emotional Intelligence

What is Emotional Intelligence?

Emotional intelligence is one’s ability to understand, connect with, and express their own emotions appropriately while understanding, connecting to, and acknowledging the emotions of others—appropriately.

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Emotional Intelligence Begins with Self-Awareness

We must identify emotions and interpret them accurately within ourselves first and foremost. If we are misreading our own emotions, then chances are we are also misreading the emotions of others. We often make the mistake of assuming others feel the same as we do in a situation. Unfortunately, this is not the case. 

This can be especially dangerous for an empath, as we operate from the assumption that everyone has the same level of empathy as us. In reality, many lack the ability to feel empathy at all, and our own empathetic nature makes up a target for such people.  

Many who lack emotional intelligence are out of touch with their emotions and are completely unaware. Disconnecting from emotions is a common coping strategy that can serve us in a crisis or traumatic situation, but it becomes debilitating in the realm of human connection if we never learn to reconnect with them. Even if we can see our disconnectedness from our emotions, we are rarely able to see to the full extent to which we have numbed out.

When we are out of touch with our own emotions, we may struggle to make healthy choices, experience ongoing health issues, and have difficulty relating to and supporting the emotional needs of others.

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Cultivating Self-Awareness

Below are just some thought-provoking topics to ponder in your quest for self-awareness and emotional intelligence. When working with coaching clients, the exercises I utilize are more in-depth, but digging too deep solo can be a dangerous endeavor. Take a few moments to identify a few things listed below and see where it takes you!

Before you begin the following exercise, take a moment to get centered. If at any point you feel stuck or simply cannot identify any of the suggestions or answer a question, pause. Take a break, move on, and return to this exercise later. This exercise can be especially frustrating if you struggle with alexithymia, which is a common characteristic of Autism Spectrum Disorder as well as PTSD. Please be kind to yourself and never, EVER judge an emotion. (more on that later) And most importantly, remember that you do not need to venture on this journey alone…


  • Any physical or emotional sensations you experience while doing something you enjoy.
  • Any physical or emotional sensations you experience while doing something you dislike.
  • Any physical or emotional sensations you experience when you are angry.
  • Any anger or resentment you may be holding in and explain the cause. 
  • Actions you take or behaviors you have when you are feeling sad or down.
  • Do you believe your approach to navigating these feelings has been helpful or a hindrance?
  • The last time you felt a sense of relief and explain why.
  • Emotions and any physical sensations you feel when you are in conflict with someone.
  • How you handle conflict with others and identify any patterns in outcomes.
  • Where in your body do you feel physical sensations from stress, and describe them.
  • Any frustrations you may be experiencing and explain the perceived cause. 
  • Three things you often worry about and identify what the cause is.
  • When you have a perceived problem, describe how you typically respond.
  • The last time you got upset and the cause.
  • Fears have kept you stuck, and what you believe may help you to move past them. 
  • One change you could make to eliminate some stress in your life and explain why. 
  • Why you haven’t made the above change already?
  • Something you have felt insecure about, and identify where that comes from.
  • A time you had your feelings hurt and explain what happened. 
  • The last thing you did that made you feel good. 
  • The last time you had a breakdown or a breakthrough, and what the result was.
  • What are you most at peace with about yourself or your life, and explain why?
  • One way you could bring more peace into your life.
  • The last time you felt confident, and explain why. 
  • The last time you felt anxious, and explain why.
  • List three things you feel grateful for today and why.
  • One of the most emotionally painful things to happen to you, and how you coped with it.
  • How you feel around people who have a strong sense of self.
  • List five things you have learned about yourself from this exercise.
  • List five things you would like to explore further.

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Are you Striving for Greatness or Addicted to Perfection?

Pre-Lakers I was an avid LeBron James fan for a myriad of reasons. I was such a fan that my kids and I named our cat LeBron. One of the many reasons I like LeBron James is a mantra he lives by — “Strive for Greatness.”  While it’s a great mantra, how do we differentiate a relentless pursuit of greatness from a raging addiction to perfection?

It may sound crazy to parallel the two, but the similarities are undeniable. Much like an addiction, perfection is fleeting, elusive, driven by fear, and fueled by shame. What many people fail to realize about addiction is that the person/process/substance of choice is never the real problem—it is a symptom of an underlying problem. The addiction becomes a coping strategy that consumes the addict. If you find yourself struggling with an overwhelming need to attain perfection or a crushing call to be bigger, badder, and better, you may want to ask yourself one question.

How is this serving ME

While an all-consuming quest for perfection may be a great benefit to others, more often than not, this quest usually serves us on a more insidious level. Unfortunately, how it serves us may be self-defeating and more mentally, emotionally, and spiritually detrimental than it is positive. The darker side of this quest often serves us by shifting our focus away from some pain of our reality. Reaching for something unattainable is a great distraction from that which we cower from, which is usually emotional pain. 

Emotions are like the boogieman under your bed. They cause you to shudder in terror, but when you shine a light on it and face the fear, it disappears.

A job well done can be very fulfilling. It can feel rewarding to complete a home project, excel at work, or know that we’re a person who is punctual and conscientious. But when does our striving for excellence degenerate into a dysfunctional addiction to perfection? When shame is the driving force.


Shame is the Catalyst of Debilitating Perfectionism

As children, many of us were rewarded at home and at school for achieving “results .”Unfortunately, many also have the experience of being shamed when we don’t meet the expectation of others. Whether we received painful tongue-lashings, the cold shoulder, or an icy stare of disapproval, we may have interpreted that to mean we are only accepted and loved when we’re “successful .”With this comes the belief that we are bad, unloveable, and unworthy of love and accepted when we fall short. This belief results in shame.

We develop a false, protective self through slow and steady toxic messaging that we display to the world to win praise and avoid the pain of disapproval. When our need for love and acceptance is not nurtured, we come to live with the overpowering voice of an inner critic that is so scrutinizing and cruel it produces a level of shame and self-doubt that could bring LeBron James to his knees.

A steady diet of shame for inevitable shortcomings can grow into debilitating perfectionism. If we can achieve perfection in all we do, we become bulletproof to blame and criticize. If we become “perfect” in all our endeavors, we increase our chances of avoiding the painful re-activation of shame.

Perfectionism and hyper-vigilance come at a cost. It isn’t easy to find true joy and fulfillment when we relentlessly pursue perfection. When our self-worth is tied to our actions rather than embracing ourselves as human beings with strengths and weaknesses—we set ourselves up for being anxiously preoccupied or depressed.

The Pathway to Peace

It is liberating to loosen the grip of perfectionism, but first, we need to recognize how shame may be driving you off track. When we begin to identify the shame and become mindful of how it lives in our body, we start to get distance from it rather than being driven by it. 

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The Inner Critic Haunts the GOAT

Learn to observe our inner critic objectively. “Ugh, there’s that shame again telling me I that I suck if I don’t do everything perfectly…and insisting that I’m destined to become homeless and die a sad, lonely death if I make one tiny mistake.” Identifying the voice of our inner critic empowers us to silence it and diminish the power it has over us. 

Being human means failing miserably at times. We learn and grow from our mistakes by humbly acknowledging them and being compassionate toward ourselves. We are more likely to succeed when we’re no longer paralyzed by the fear of failure.

When that inner critic chimes in, rewrite the script and channel a LeBron James pep-talk. “Stop caring about what other people think! Do your best, give it all you got. If you fail miserably, it’s an opportunity to turn that into your greatest achievement. Either way, it’s a win!”

The ability to reframe your perspective and rewrite the script is extraordinarily freeing! It gives you the power to find pleasure and meaning in activities regardless of whether you succeed or fail in any initiative. Each person needs to find their own balance and path. The key is to apply ourselves wholeheartedly without getting too attached to results. Strive for greatness while letting go of the burden of being obsessed with perfection or a specific outcome.

As you become mindful of the shame and fear that may be driving the cruel burden of perfectionism, remember that you don’t need to be perfect to be loved and accepted. When you feel compelled to displace the balance of your life and push painfully hard for perfection, make sure the compensation is worth the cost. Your self-worth is priceless, and you are worthy, loveable, and valid just as you are.

Lastly, it’s worth noting that LeBron James is an anomaly. And in my humble opinion, like most grotesquely overpaid professional athletes, he is very much addicted to perfecting his gift. But even he does not promote insist you strive for perfection; his mantra is Stive for Greatness. And even LeBron embraces and reframes his failures along his journey.

One last video… Addicted to Perfect



20 Questions to Welcome 2020

A New Year’s Eve Reflection

  1. What was the most kickass thing that happened to you in 2019?
  2. What was the most kickass thing you achieved in 2019?
  3. What was the most lackluster occurrence in 2019?
  4. What was the biggest obstacle you overcame in 2019?
  5. What are 3 adjectives to describe how 2019 has changed you?
  6. Who has made a positive impact on your life in 2019? (make a list and thank them NOW, before you get “too busy.”)
  7. Who has made a negative impact on your life in 2019? (write those names down, metaphorically vomity your thoughts and feelings onto paper and light that sh!t on fire!)
  8. What was your biggest OMG WTF moment in 2019?
  9. In what way(s) have you grow mentally?
  10. In what way(s) have you grow emotionally?
  11. In what way(s) have you grow spiritually?
  12. In what way(s) have you grow professionally?
  13. In what ways have you developed health and wellness this past year?
  14. In what ways have you degraded your health and wellness this past year?
  15. What have you procrastinated the most with this past year?
  16. What have you squandered the most time on this past year?
  17. How have you grown in your relationships with others?
  18. What was the biggest life lesson in 2019?
  19. What is 1 thing you tolerated in 2019 that you should have eliminated from your life? person/process/emotion/action/thought 
  20. How do you intend to become a better human in 2020?

Happy Reflecting!

Cheers to a Kickass New Year!


Helping One Person At A Time

Never worry about numbers. Help one person at a time, and always start with the person nearest you.” ~Mother Teresa

I’m not easily starstruck or impressed by others, but I do have a shortlist of those whom I greatly admire and Mother Teresa is the frontrunner. The above quote is one of my favorites!

Yes, Mother Teresa is my hero!

You have to love a woman who can influence the masses by focusing on one person at a time!

Lizzo is pretty high on my list, too, so it’s a pretty diverse list of rockstar humans. While she comes in behind Brené Brown, Dana Morningstar, and the Dalai Lama—mad props to Lizzo for owning her awesome. 

Feelin’ Good As Hell

I’ll be devastated if Lizzo ever stops playing the flute, goes “keto” or gets a boob job and porcelain veneers.

On those days when I feel a little less-than in my 46-year-old skin, I put on Good As Hell, do a (slightly graying) hair toss, check my nails, and embrace my fine ass self. As I should!! 

Because of Lizzo, I feel no shame when I throw down on copious amounts of sweet potato fries. And I no longer feel compelled to do 5,000 kettlebell swings afterward.

Lizzo has done for the self-esteem of women what Mother Teresa has done for the poor, sick, and hungry. And while Lizzo is also helping the masses, she has managed to do so by focusing on loving one human wholly—herself. We can all afford to cultivate more self-love because you can only love someone else as much as you love yourself.

Back to Mother Teresa…

What I love most about Mother Teresa is the value she placed on helping one soul at a time.

I feel like I am of a dying breed who still sees the value in trying to change the world ONE HUMAN at a time.

A bit odd considering this is coming from a girl who suffers from a severe addiction to “more.” Whether it be kettlebells, sweet potato fries, shoes, or wine—what I suffer from is a disease of “more”! I call it moreitis. (While moreitis is not an official word, I believe it should be a formal diagnosis and warrants being added to the DSM.)

Regardless of my moreitis, I still have the wherewithal to know the gifts I have been blessed with are best shared on a smaller, more humble scale. This is likely the only area in my life where I haven’t felt compelled to push for more, more, more. Perhaps because I strive to be led in this area by something outside of myself. Whatever the case may be, I hope I continue to stand firm in this.

Again, back to Mother Teresa! Here is another one of my favorite quotes from MamaT:

“I never look at the masses as my responsibility; I look at the individual. I can only love one person at a time – just one, one, one. So you begin. I began – I picked up one person. Maybe if I didn’t pick up that one person, I wouldn’t have picked up forty-two thousand…The same thing goes for you, the same thing in your family, the same thing in your church, your community. Just begin – one, one, one.”

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I just love that! She helped sO many people, but her focus was never on her legacy or achieving international fame. And I am confident she never strategized about how to generate a passive income or run group sessions.

Her purpose was pure, and that gave her the power to help so many. One soul at a time…

I will refrain from details about the ugliness I have seen veiled under the guise of “helping people”. All I will say is that I’m disenchanted by the direction businesses are going with group everything—training/coaching/healing. There seems to be a trend of turning every single helping profession into a McDonald’s.

It seems the masses are capitalizing on where the healthcare industry is failing. People are ready to invest their time, money, and attention to new solutions since the cost of healthcare is so perversely overinflated. It saddens me to see how many hugely talented professionals are selling out for the sake of generating more revenue. 

I understand why, though. For those of us who have big giant hearts on our sleeves, we are walking targets for the opportunist! And no matter how great your intentions, it can be hard to make ends meet when your sole purpose in life is to help people. Our kind rarely set out to “make money.” We offer fee scale discounts and service exchanges. We volunteer our time to those who don’t have the means to pay for our services. We open our businesses and hearts up to those at their rock-bottom—all for the sake of helping them reach higher ground.

I LIVE for the gratitude expressed to me by those whom I have had the honor of helping! One human at a time…

That’s all fine and good, but we still have mortgages to pay and mouths to feed. Unfortunately, AT&T and Capital One do not accept gratitude or good intentions as payment. 

This conundrum has led me down a few rabbit holes myself. When an opportunist dangles a carrot that promises financial security, and a passive income for doing what we love, it’s tempting! Unfortunately, anyone who has taken the bait before knows how sharp that hook is…and how hard it can be to get unstuck!

Getting “unstuck” is something I have so much experience with, I’ve made a career out of it.

Getting unstuck is hard, but possible! A little guidance, support, and accountability are invaluable to this process though. And in such a vulnerable state, having a person’s undivided attention is imperative. That is why I do what I do.

So mad props to my tribe of helping professionals who sometimes find yourself struggling to make ends meet because there is a Reiki franchise opening next door to your the Wellness Center. Please keep at it! Channel your inner Mother Teresa, and cling to the teachings of the Dalai Lama. I’m a believer in Karma! Keep doing good, and the good will come full circle.

The impact you have on the ONE soul in front of you holds so much more value than a diluted and scripted version of you. Remember why you started this journey, believe in the good you do, and hold onto the faith that all things are possible when you align yourself with what your true purpose is. 

And to my people who see the value in my breed of healers and helpers, THANK YOU! 

I too have been seduced by the shiny new pop-up wellness gimmick found on Groupon more times than I care to admit. Who can turn down a good bargain, promising gimmick, or a quick fix? However, I always find my way back to what matters most—the professionals who retain their integrity and continue to place value on helping one human at a time.

Technology enables me to provide one-on-one, personalized coaching that fits into your busy life. The majority of my coaching is done via phone and occasionally via video. This allows us to connect when you need or want to vs. when you can squeeze self-care into your already packed schedule. 

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